The problem with running your business on Kairos time is that the bills are due on Chronos time.
So how’s my workshop launch going? Like a lot of really creative entrepreneurs I struggle with time blindness, which I talked about in my last email.
Here’s a brief recap: time blindness is a struggle to flow. To flow you need to collaborate with two types of time: Chronos and Kairos. If you struggle with time blindness, you struggle against Chronos time (calendars, clocks, and due dates) and default to Kairos time (unstructured moments). But this does not mean you are a master of Kairos time. Rather, this means that by default you live at the whim of it. Kairos time controls you.
This is my first launch and I’m not expecting perfection. As I’ve talked about in another past email, aiming for perfection is what has kept me stuck in the dreaming and not actually doing anything. So, for the sake of me actually materializing my dreams, I’m choosing to release my grip on perfection.
I understand that this launch is the first stroke of what will eventually become a masterpiece and it will take time, a few mistakes, and several tries to get the results I want to see. I’m now so okay with this because I’m just so proud of myself for actually doing it, regardless of any mistakes along the way and whatever the results of my efforts may end up being. I’m doing it despite my preferences of how it gets done, and this is what’s called living.
I was supposed to write this email earlier because it was my plan to get a new launch email out every 3 days until the first class of the workshop. However, the launch officially began Thanksgiving week and I’ve only sent out one email and I’ve done no promotion on social media. I have outlines for the emails that were meant to follow the first and I had every intention of writing them all during Thanksgiving week, but I didn’t.
Why?
It was Thanksgiving week and my boyfriend and I had traveled to visit his parents. I allowed myself to get swept up in the moments of spending time with them, eating delicious Ukrainian foods, and doing cool stuff together. There were moments of downtime I could have been writing but I struggled to focus within those unstructured moments. I actually don’t regret this at all and wouldn’t have had it any other way. So, I’ll make a note of this for the future and make some adjustments.
Note to future self: Despite how excited or motivated you feel at the time, don’t plan to write a launch sequence during the holidays and travel. Write it beforehand and automate it or plan to launch after you return to a normal routine so you can enjoy quality time with loved ones without feeling overwhelmed by a to-do list that’s not getting done.
I’m not beating myself up about it. In the past I would have. I’d have felt so much shame and disappointment in myself and I would have even given up all together thinking, fuck it I don’t actually want to do this anymore anyway (which is a lie).
I’ll admit that I’ve actually felt these thoughts creeping in over the past few days. I even started a whole new blog with plans for a whole new business idea…but then I recognized the pattern. It’s my pattern when my personal projects don’t go as planned, I start to feel overwhelmed by the flow of unexpected events and instead of implementing some discipline to redirect myself back to my course, I give up and let the flow take me wherever it will, which means I don’t complete my intended journey and instead I get set off on a new course that I’m fated once again to not complete.
The difference this time is that I’m working with the enneagram. The key to successfully working with the enneagram is developing a practice of self-observation. Through self-observation I’ve been able to clearly pinpoint my exact location on the enneagram as well as clearly identify what is keeping me stuck at that point and what I need to do to move forward.
Mastering time is a practice that requires discipline and commitment, but not perfection. Discipline and commitment mean that when things don’t go according to your ideal plan, you don’t give up, you don’t shame yourself, and you definitely don’t cast blame on other people and outside events. You accept responsibility, take in the data, and steer yourself back onto your course. This is how you break patterns you don’t want to keep repeating and this is how you become a master creator of your life.
You become a master of Kairos time by becoming a master of both types of time. To master one type of time is to master the other. To master time is to master flow. This is the work of the enneagram.
Starting January 6th I’ll be teaching a 10-week workshop on The Enneagram, a cosmological system for mastering flow.
The cost of the workshop is $299 in-full or four monthly payments of $75.
Hit reply if you have questions.
❤️🔥 Kayla
